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Hmm...
I hate today. It's a crappy day.
So let me just say what I need to, even if it doesn't make sense to anyone but me.
To the first: I love you, but you're crazy. I want you to be better, but you can't. All I do is get my hopes up and then get hurt because you're still crazy and I can't help you. I'm not asking you to change, just know that it's hard for me to handle this.
To Aemocoroae: Maybe I would be with you if I hadn't been your second choice, if I hadn't been what you'd settle for if you couldn't have the one you wanted. You came to me when I was vulnerable and already in doubt of my love for the first, and if I had been any weaker, you would have had me.
That said, I still care about you deeply; you're my best friend, and you're pushing me away for some strange reason and you won't even talk about it. It doesn't matter what there is between us, I'm still the same person. Why aren't you?
To the woman I will now affectionately refer to as Aunt Petunia (if you know me, you know why): What is wrong with you? You want me to be some evil horrible person just so you can feel better about yourself. Well, I'm not that person. And no matter how hard you try, you can't make me that person.
To my father: You made a mistake when you threw me into this, but I forgive you. I just need you to be patient with me. I have so much going on right now.
To my God, who is my only Protecter: Guide me. I need you more than ever. I do not have the strength to fend off all of the pain that is being thrown at me, but neither do I have the ability to close myself off and stop caring. I can't do that anymore. Please help me to find the right Path.
To my Eromenos: I will probably never see you again, but the thought of you gives me hope every day that there is good in the world. I love you. I knew that from the moment I saw you. I hope that you're life will be easier than mine and if I could raise you as I want to, I would ensure it. You are my Brynn...
Done.
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So let me just say what I need to, even if it doesn't make sense to anyone but me.
To the first: I love you, but you're crazy. I want you to be better, but you can't. All I do is get my hopes up and then get hurt because you're still crazy and I can't help you. I'm not asking you to change, just know that it's hard for me to handle this.
To Aemocoroae: Maybe I would be with you if I hadn't been your second choice, if I hadn't been what you'd settle for if you couldn't have the one you wanted. You came to me when I was vulnerable and already in doubt of my love for the first, and if I had been any weaker, you would have had me.
That said, I still care about you deeply; you're my best friend, and you're pushing me away for some strange reason and you won't even talk about it. It doesn't matter what there is between us, I'm still the same person. Why aren't you?
To the woman I will now affectionately refer to as Aunt Petunia (if you know me, you know why): What is wrong with you? You want me to be some evil horrible person just so you can feel better about yourself. Well, I'm not that person. And no matter how hard you try, you can't make me that person.
To my father: You made a mistake when you threw me into this, but I forgive you. I just need you to be patient with me. I have so much going on right now.
To my God, who is my only Protecter: Guide me. I need you more than ever. I do not have the strength to fend off all of the pain that is being thrown at me, but neither do I have the ability to close myself off and stop caring. I can't do that anymore. Please help me to find the right Path.
To my Eromenos: I will probably never see you again, but the thought of you gives me hope every day that there is good in the world. I love you. I knew that from the moment I saw you. I hope that you're life will be easier than mine and if I could raise you as I want to, I would ensure it. You are my Brynn...
Done.
MM
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